The Filament Blog

You Make Me Feel Normal Feb 14, 2023

I recently got coffee with a lovely man I met a few years ago while living in NYC. I got to the coffee shop before he did, occasionally glancing out the windows at the busy street outside as I...

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Pain and Pleasure Feb 01, 2023

I woke up in the middle of the night feeling like my hands had been injected with gasoline. I lay awake, rubbing my hands on the cool plastic rails of my hospital bed as I tried to relieve the...

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Living For Living’s Sake Jan 25, 2023

I was living in New York City during the summer of 2019 when I received an unexpected call on the phone from someone who introduced herself as the head of the policy team on Andrew Yang’s...

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What’s The Real Problem Here? Jan 12, 2023

I bought my house in Utah sight unseen in 2021. I had been working with a real estate agent for months and we hadn’t found anything that would work for someone who uses a wheelchair. This was...

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9 Years of Paralysis - Building a New Home Jan 05, 2023

I used to live in the skies.

I spent my days flying through the air, rocketing through the great blue. The thrill of flying is something I miss - the feeling of accelerating into the heavens, pure...

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Do This Before You Make Any New Year’s Resolutions Dec 27, 2022

Last New Year’s Eve, my sister and I found ourselves sitting across from each other in our coziest pajamas, sipping hot mugs of tea while we awaited the arrival of 2022.

We started sharing...

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When At First You Don't Succeed... Dec 20, 2022

The minute I saw the height of the step into the shower, I knew I wouldn’t be able to get in by myself. It was an inch too high for me to be able to pop on my own, so I sat with my forehead...

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Transformation: It Takes A Pinch Of Faith Dec 08, 2022

When I started this blog, I promised you that I would bring my whole self, that I would really show up - presenting not just the neat, insightful parts of me, but the more complex and untidy parts,...

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Your Heroes Are Trying To Tell You Something Nov 29, 2022

I woke up early one Saturday morning to the soft beeping of my Timex watch. I quickly silenced it and stayed still, listening to hear if my little brother had woken up in the bunk below. Hearing...

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I Stopped Doing Personal Development - Here’s Why Nov 16, 2022

For most of my life I’ve been interested in what I used to call “self-improvement” or “personal development.” I believed that people were like Pokémon,...

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Free Up Your Bandwidth Nov 09, 2022

Have you ever been using your phone when suddenly it becomes uncharacteristically sluggish? You check the battery, but you’re still good with 23% so you check to see if you have a software...

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Do I Need to Walk to Be Happy? Oct 24, 2022

There is a giant billboard I pass whenever I travel into Salt Lake City. It features a woman with tight brown bouncy curls and a vibrant white-toothed smile, her arms thrown up in the air. She...

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